I refuse to explain
Keeping my feelings sheltered
Safe from you in my very core
Blind to the heavy coals they became.
Time and pressure
Over
And over
And over.
A weight that becomes a burden
An unwanted child
I have no choice but to carry
Shackles to my arms.
A devouring anger that festers and burns
Making me slink away from every touch
Every soft glance igniting yet another ember
That blisters and scars every inch of skin.
A tingling rage that pokes and prods
Overwhelming my senses
The flames wild as I curl up tighter
Building walls to keep you out.
Higher and higher
Until the sun is blotted out
And I’m lost in endless black
A prison of my own creation.
Royal Rose 